So here's the question, I think. We (and when I say we I mean I) go from considering to adopt an 11 year old girl to a 3 year old girl to actually considering a 13 year old girl. I'm thinking I must be out of my mind. Great Wall keeps sending me email of children that are either special focus or aging out of the system. (Why do they have to do that). Anyway, I got an email today of a 13 year old girl that will be aging out of the system around Tiffani's birthday next year. I think I would actually consider it, however, Deb is not sure. I agree with her that it could be scary.... IDK...
Maybe I am just asking for trouble having 5 girls in the house???
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Well, got some news...
I got a call today - Mimi is not adoptable. I found out that she is being fostered by the Orphanage for some other reason than adoption. Exact details could not be given but it was made clear that her situation right now is that she will stay in foster care.
So, what does this mean from here? Who knows? We will pray a lot more and see where God is leading us. I have to say that I am starting to feel like my kids - not listening. He must be telling us something but we aren't listening good enough to it. I can say that he is closing the wrong doors fast enough so that we do not get too discouraged.
So, what does this mean from here? Who knows? We will pray a lot more and see where God is leading us. I have to say that I am starting to feel like my kids - not listening. He must be telling us something but we aren't listening good enough to it. I can say that he is closing the wrong doors fast enough so that we do not get too discouraged.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Very late at posting...
Sorry all. I have gotten very busy with work and just things. A lot has been changing since I last blogged.
The Cliff note version is that we are trying to find out more information about Mimi (Min Min). She was the three year old that was paired with Tiff for the week. I did get to spend a lot of time with her too and did bond with her but had no intentions of bringing home another "baby". I know - three isn't a baby but there were still diapers involved (very bad ones I might add). Anyway, we have contacted an agency and gathering as much information as we can. I believe from the facts there is an 80% chance that we could adopt her if we wanted to. Of course there is a 100% chance if I would just trust the signs that God has been showing us. (Thanks Melissa for the photo on Sunday - I think that sealed it for me).
Anyway, I know this is a very small update compared to my other posts but I didn't want to leave this site blank for too much longer. I will get better over the next few days to get some more things up here.
Bill out.
The Cliff note version is that we are trying to find out more information about Mimi (Min Min). She was the three year old that was paired with Tiff for the week. I did get to spend a lot of time with her too and did bond with her but had no intentions of bringing home another "baby". I know - three isn't a baby but there were still diapers involved (very bad ones I might add). Anyway, we have contacted an agency and gathering as much information as we can. I believe from the facts there is an 80% chance that we could adopt her if we wanted to. Of course there is a 100% chance if I would just trust the signs that God has been showing us. (Thanks Melissa for the photo on Sunday - I think that sealed it for me).
Anyway, I know this is a very small update compared to my other posts but I didn't want to leave this site blank for too much longer. I will get better over the next few days to get some more things up here.
Bill out.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Coming soon....
Sorry, photos are coming soon. Still trying to adjust from China time. I keep wanting to go to sleep at 1 or 2 in the afternoon....
Thank you to everyone for your prayers. I still do not understand what God is trying to do in our lives right now but I am going to keep praying and wait on Him.
Thanks. B.
Thank you to everyone for your prayers. I still do not understand what God is trying to do in our lives right now but I am going to keep praying and wait on Him.
Thanks. B.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Sad and Happy News
Well, after a long day I was able to hear back from a friend of mine in China last night and she told me that Jenny has in fact been matched with a family, which is great for her. It does make me sad though and confuses me A LOT. I was so sure that God was telling me that she was to be a part of our family. The director there did tell my friend that Jenny does likes us a lot! That did feel good.
She said that she was matched back in March which should mean that she would go home sometime this year still. Usually you have to have your paperwork in within 6 months of locking a file. We do so love this child so much. It is hard to think that she is now someone else's daughter.
I do not know God's plans but I do know that there is one. I am going to just continue to pray that God reveals to me why this all happened. I would ask for continued prayers for the direction that He is directing me.
I guess I have been consumed with all of this lately that I have been neglecting other areas of my life. I guess I don't know how to just throw the happy switch after going through all of this but I will give it a try. I am truly happy to be home. I missed the little ones so much and yet at the same time they are already driving me crazy. I am going to make a goal to try and spend more time with them this week. It is hard though coming back from 10 days, load of emails and all of the "distractions" that I was talking about when in China. Our house has 6+ computers, 4+ TV's, gameboys, etc..... the list goes on....
I will try and post more photos and videos from the trip during this week. Thank you again for all of your prayers!
Bill
She said that she was matched back in March which should mean that she would go home sometime this year still. Usually you have to have your paperwork in within 6 months of locking a file. We do so love this child so much. It is hard to think that she is now someone else's daughter.
I do not know God's plans but I do know that there is one. I am going to just continue to pray that God reveals to me why this all happened. I would ask for continued prayers for the direction that He is directing me.
I guess I have been consumed with all of this lately that I have been neglecting other areas of my life. I guess I don't know how to just throw the happy switch after going through all of this but I will give it a try. I am truly happy to be home. I missed the little ones so much and yet at the same time they are already driving me crazy. I am going to make a goal to try and spend more time with them this week. It is hard though coming back from 10 days, load of emails and all of the "distractions" that I was talking about when in China. Our house has 6+ computers, 4+ TV's, gameboys, etc..... the list goes on....
I will try and post more photos and videos from the trip during this week. Thank you again for all of your prayers!
Bill
Monday, August 1, 2011
Breaking Heart
My Heart is breaking this morning and although I should be happy I am not. I have heard back from a friend that Jenny may have already been placed with a family. I know that this is a really good thing and I should be jumping for joy for her. I am so glad that she will not grow up in an institution but I have to say that I am very sad. I did so believe that God had a plan for this child to become a part of this family. A small part of me wants the information to be wrong but at the same time if there is someone ready to bring her home than that should be a really really good thing.
I do not know why this is happening at this time. I believe God must have some plan for all of this but I cannot see it.
The original email that I received said that she was available and that they had even asked her if she would want to be adopted by our family (which they should not have done) but then I got another email at 4:00 am saying that the information was incorrect and that I should contact a certain agency to find out more information.
I was reminded of 1 Corinthians 13 this morning which most of you I am sure know "Love is patient, Love is kind,..." and it finishes with "And now these three remain,: Faith, Hope and Love. But the greatest of these is Love.". I am not exactly sure why this scripture came to my mind. I was wearing a shirt with this on it on Friday when the children left.
As I did read through the entire scripture I had to stop where it said self-seeking. I had to wonder if this is what I was doing. Was I trying to make this happen to fill some guilt that I had? I started to believe that it may be true. How wrong is it that I pray I had been given the wrong information? Or that I pray the family that has her file would change their mind? I am being as honest as I can this morning. I feel in love with this child. Why did God allow that? What is the purpose?
So, I ask this morning for your prayers, no I plead for them. I am really hurting. I feel that a part of me has been striped away. Does that sound strange that I could become so attached to a child in only a couple of days? Does it make any sense at all? No, but that is what the Love of God is. It cannot be rationalized or explained by man.
From a dark office, with many tears.....
I do not know why this is happening at this time. I believe God must have some plan for all of this but I cannot see it.
The original email that I received said that she was available and that they had even asked her if she would want to be adopted by our family (which they should not have done) but then I got another email at 4:00 am saying that the information was incorrect and that I should contact a certain agency to find out more information.
I was reminded of 1 Corinthians 13 this morning which most of you I am sure know "Love is patient, Love is kind,..." and it finishes with "And now these three remain,: Faith, Hope and Love. But the greatest of these is Love.". I am not exactly sure why this scripture came to my mind. I was wearing a shirt with this on it on Friday when the children left.
As I did read through the entire scripture I had to stop where it said self-seeking. I had to wonder if this is what I was doing. Was I trying to make this happen to fill some guilt that I had? I started to believe that it may be true. How wrong is it that I pray I had been given the wrong information? Or that I pray the family that has her file would change their mind? I am being as honest as I can this morning. I feel in love with this child. Why did God allow that? What is the purpose?
So, I ask this morning for your prayers, no I plead for them. I am really hurting. I feel that a part of me has been striped away. Does that sound strange that I could become so attached to a child in only a couple of days? Does it make any sense at all? No, but that is what the Love of God is. It cannot be rationalized or explained by man.
From a dark office, with many tears.....
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